I tried to think of some matter-of-fact or funny ways to compose this post, but I decided to be transparent here.
Next week the youngest of my three older kids (we have two "sets" -- seven years between the older and younger) starts college. So, that set includes one married and two now in college. I guess this is now a new chapter in our lives. I will admit, it is tough to let go. Yes, the two are still living at home, but things have changed. My role is different now. I know that I can still teach them things, etc., but their "school" days with me are over. I guess this has me pretty sentimental right now.
Only through God's grace did we make it, there is no other way. There are so many memories that come to mind. I do have some regrets, but no regrets that we chose home education. I really got/am getting a whole new education (regarding the picture, my housekeeping skills have improved). I have learned more about history and science, but mostly I have learned about life. I have some great memories of stories, laughing, projects, eating, helping, learning-- living together. I can't even remember all of the curriculum we used (of course, I remember Five in a Row :)), but I want to always remember talks of politics, religion, God, "conspiracy theories", wars, issues with friends, church, and many other ethical issues. We had some pretty heated debates and one child in particular made sure we didn't commit any fallacies in our logic. I want my kids to remember the trips to the library and park, or days where I announced that it would be a short "school" day because the weather was too nice. I wonder if they will know that I didn't mind those "Lego breaks" going a little longer than ten minutes because brother and sister should be best friends.
I remember having to go and ask for forgiveness. I remember having to start new, to admit my mistakes and weaknesses. There is not much hiding your true self when you are together most of the time. In all, I am very thankful that I shared this part in their lives.
I think the best piece of advice I got was that education is about relationships-first with God. After fifteen years, I still have to remind myself.
For those who have gone before and paved the way, thank you.
So, I thankfully look forward to this new chapter......
Mom, you made me cry!
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